Friday, November 28, 2008

Akeelah and the Bee

"You know that feeling where everything feels right? Where you don't have to worry about tomorrow or yesterday? Where you feel safe and know you're doing the best you can? There's a word for that. It's called love." -Akeelah and the Bee

Grown-Up Christmas List

I hate this time of year. Oh yes, I love giving thanks, anticipating and celebrating the birth of our Savior, and the impending joy of this season. But, with my birthday three days before Christmas, and two different families to celebrate Christmas and my birthday with, a lot of nagging goes on. Everyone wants to know what I want. "Nothing," is not an acceptable answer. But for whatever reason "want" and "need" are so synonymous in my mind. I don't need anything so I feel like I don't want anything. 
My heart is so broken for the world around me that I feel unreasonably selfish wanting anything that I don't absolutely need. And I have more than enough as it is. I have food, a place to live, and I'm on my way to having a degree with which to obtain a career. 
I can't describe to my family that I just want other people to have enough too. Sure, we go to the trees and get a name printed on an angel-shaped piece of cardstock and go purchase of a few things or adopt a family for Christmas, but my heart is so burdened for all the other children, families, people, even animals out there who are lonely, cold, hungry...hurting. 

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown-up Christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list

As children we believed 
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely 
Wrapped beneath our tree.

Well, Heaven surely knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal 
A hurting human soul...

I don't want to become apathetic or to even care less about everyone else. I just don't want to be so weighed down by it in a season that is supposed to be full of joy and excitement. 

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

This is Emily. Lindsay left up her blog at my house. The end.

currently listening to: the format

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A Simple Prayer

May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart.

May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.

May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain into joy.

May God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in this world, so that you can do what others claim cannot be done.

May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be, so that you can act without fear and in total confidence of His power.

May you be confident knowing you are a child of God.