Saturday, July 19, 2003

Well, updates, since Thursday.

-My sister has come to stay with us for a week. :)
-My friend Lauren and I went to "Red, White and Blonde."
-I made more cards.
-I packed for the beach, and I will be leaving tomorrow morning.
-I have run and danced, lots and lots!
-The shaking/trembling has gotten MUCH worse, and it
really concerns me.

About the trembling and shaking. We called the doctor and she said it was just stress, but I don't think I am stressed enough to be unable to tie my own hair back, or pour juice. It is even hard to type now because I feel like I have no control over my hands. I used to type like 80 words a minute, with few mistakes. Now I am typing like 1 letter every 3 seconds, and I have to push really hard on the keys. This probably sounds crazy but I feel like all control over my motor skills is gone. Dance, gymnastics and running are harder because my legs and feet tremble too, but they tremble slightly. When I try to do gym. like a hand stand or something, I can't because my hands are no longer stable. I have gone from being the second best gymnast in my class to being the worst because I can do so little. It scares me, and I have started drinking nothing but water, and whenever I am at home, I use a lid, because it is so easy to tip it too much as I put the cup to my mouth. I don't like the way this feels, and I wish it would just go away. I have a life to live, drinks to drink, food to eat, races to run, games to play, gym. meets to participate in, recitals to perform at, and a difference to make. I can't write very neatly anymore, and because typing is becoming impossible, I doubt my novel will ever be finished. Oh well. If anyone knows anything that might be causing this, or knows someone I could contact, please let me know. I really need to fix this. More later. My hands are exhausted. Much love to all, and please. .. if you can. .. help me.

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